the sound my heart makes in the silence of the night..

eyelashes fluttering on my cheek. your gentle breath in my ear. the squeeze of soft dainty hands in mine. a cold fall night looking at the ocean and the sparkle of the early stars in the sky. here is our story. all it ever was and all it ever will be. . .
condensed in that microcosm of that minute. that second. that instance where i gaze at you and you gaze at me.
and suddenly time freezes. we imagine. walks in the park, wearing big sweaters and blue jeans. i read you my favorite poems. you laugh at my quiet awkward inferences. we imagine. trips to pumpkin patches, leafy fields auburn trees, in bright spectrum of autumn. simple warm nights in december. teasing about christmas gifts. pillow fights and blankets wrapped tightly. vacations in Mediterranean sun. two adventurers with wonder and amazement in their eyes. we imagine. getting caught out in rain. summer rain. rain that blankets. rain thats inescapable. we are moody at first. but decide 'to hell with rain! to hell with trivialities!' we SPLASH! STOMP! KICK! puddles our private play ground. and your hair so wet, our clothes so heavy. we hold each other for warmth. your breath smells sweet like purple nerds. i brush the hair from your eyes. and we embrace... the first perfect moment of clarity. i love everything about you.. our cheeks blush crimson red in the steamy dew we kiss...

discovery. truth. defeat. pain. hurt. TRIUMPH! care. loyalty. warmth. passion... . . . .

LOVE.

but then here i am. back to my cruel reality where it's just me. just me and my day dreams. dreams that haunt my every waking moment. thinking why couldn't that be real. my heart so pale, so painful for longing for that kind of love...