hey God...
i'll never stop believing in you. i'll never stop praying and thanking you for all the miracles in my life. i'll never stop loving you... i just don't think you're this tight wod that needs constant attention and worship. i think spending time relating and loving other humans is what you would prefer. regardless of what some ancient text says about how i should act and live at the end of the day i'm just me and it feels like i have to figure things out for myself...
as always i'm still learning how to be a better human being and i feel i have many more lessons to learn about compassion and love.. i also still worry A LOT about people thinking i'm fake and that i do things with underlying intentions.. but.. at this stage in my life i feel like i'm finally comfortable with who i am and it feels great! it took 24 years.. and lots of mistakes! but i wouldn't turn back and change a thing. thanks for never leaving me. :) every day is a chance to learn and grow and love. i hope someday we can have a long chat about my life. in the meantime i'll try not to get into tooo much trouble... and i will continue to cherish every moment of my life like a precious gift.
in your sons most precious name. amen.
<3
