olson on MY side..

"i'm so angry at the government! they made me pay for my medical services plan for a little more then a year, it comes out to well over 1000 dollars altogether . even though i was still supposed to be covered under premium service. i paid them anyways every month on time for fear of interest. 7 months ago when they received my tax assessment they realized yes i was indeed covered under premium assistance and therefore were supposed to reimburse the full amount i had been paying them.. so a little later they sent me a cheque i was so excited to get my money back! i opened the cheque and found a total reimbursement of 54 dollars.. WTF. i payed well over 1000.

i called them and they said it would be about 5 months before it could be processed and sent to me. here i am thinking wtf did i pay you bastards for ON TIME if you can't pay me ON TIME. it's been 7 months since that phone call and i still haven't seen a single penny of my money.

the moral of the story. when you turn 19 and you aren't in school and they ask you to pay your msp don't effing do it... those dickheads will do all they can to get your money and they make it so easy for you to pay them but once it's time to get the money back they'll give you the run around.."

thats what i wrote on facebook. and i also sent this story to chris olson this chris olson

he doesn't usually do stories on medical services but i hope they make an acceptation.
I AM SO PISSED OFF.. i swear they don't know who they're messing with.

emo'ness

so far 2009 seems to be pretty messed up for me i don't think i've ever been this emo in my life. well maybe when i was a teenager first getting into high school. but this is ridiculous! by the way i'd like to apologize to anyone you has followed a link here expecting this to be another cool blog by rye1 only to find out i'm a whiny little bitch. hahahaha

but yea 2009 lets get going already enough with the downers. i need some good stuff!

i never wrote any of this to get you back.. i don't know what you think but if you just read it again you'd maybe realize i'm glad we are apart. it's for the the better. don't tell me it's "too little too late" when i never tried to get you back. those words were to make peace with myself and you. not to get to you... don't be so vain. all this is making me bitter and angry. i accepted it a long time ago that this is the way it has to be for your happiness and your future. but now i'm starting to feel a little angry and i hope you can forgive me.

if you have the balls to block me on facebook and say stuff like " empty sweet words, too little too late."
then don't try to contact me and don't pretend to be nice to me. just go on with your life. you can't have your cake and eat it too.

i don't know why i kept these pictures as long as i have. maybe i thought someday things will be good between us, and maybe we might get back together, then i will surprise her with these photos from when we were young. i can see i was living wishing for an outcome i myself condemned. i always reflected on you as being a great girlfriend and a good person it's a pity i made you feel the opposite of that. it's true what they say you don't know what you have until it's gone.

it's time for a change. much like how i could see i was toxic to your life i need to see you were toxic for mine. it's time to delete these photos and really throw this stuff out. i'm trapped in the past and it's time to move on.

girls ain't nothin but trouble. i'm glad my girlfriends hiphop.

wow..

way to make me spiral into emoness and self pity. now i know exactly how joy felt. 
i thought not in a million years no way. i don't know why you blocked me

"Block People
If you block someone, they will not be able to find you in a Facebook search, see your profile, or interact with you through Facebook channels (such as Wall posts, Poke, etc.). Any Facebook ties you currently have with a person you block will be broken (for example, friendship connections, Relationship Status, etc.). ...."

i just thought you went off facebook. but no i guess deleting me is easier. knowing this makes me feel a million things at once.
i feel angry, i feel bitter, i feel regret, i feel betrayal, i feel stupid, i feel worthless.
now i know why joy has this song on..
Do For Love - Tupac


do i deserve this?

why spiderman?

you know how i said if someone were to right a book about me my character would be a mix of holden caulfield charly kaufman and spiderman?

if you watch spiderman 2 i think you'd get the picture
http://www.megavideo.com/?v=QFHDKXBB

but if you have a life and don't got time to watch an entire movie to understand why this guy in the miror is so emo


this might be getting repetitive ..

anyway in other news the site is doing good SUPER GOOD. it's getting there slowly we're building up a readership. i'm excited for when it really starts to blow up! i want free stuff damn it! i can't wait til i start receiving goodies in the mail! thats like one of my favorite things too mail packages with those little foam popcorn things or bubble rap BUBBLE RAP! damn i want free stuff...
anyways i'm gonna watch spiderman 2 again sigh..